ok ok so i know it’s the most stereotypical thing i could’ve done tonight, but because i was in a bad mood and restless i needed to get out of the house. i’d already gone for a run today and my body was aching so instead my best mate and i went out for max brennar and then cocktails at the lychee lounge. it was friggen delicious and put my head straight so i don’t care if it’s the ‘typical girl’ thing to do. it fucking worked a treat and now i’m ready to go to bed without a care in the world.
i’ve been trying to get back into my exercise for so long now. it’s been about a month since i last did proper exercise and it feels awful. i’ve been reflecting on the kind of person i am right now compared to who i am when i’m exercising and it’s so different! when i exercise i am happy, confident and in general just a better person. i’m not lazy, i don’t get worked up about little things and i’m more at peace with myself. since going without exercise i’m totally different. my confidence is way down, i stay at home any time i can get out of social gatherings, and i eat the worst food possible at the worst times. seriously, i am the type of person that eats a huge fast food meal in bed, right before going to sleep for absolutely no reason. i’m not hungry, i’m not upset, i’m not anything. to be honest i think i do it because i’m lonely. i sleep with my laptop playing a movie or tv show every night. but when i was exercising all those bad habits stopped! i was eating really well, i barely ate junk food and i was sleeping like a baby. which is why getting my exercise regime back is so important to me. if i want anything worthwhile out of my life i need to become that person again. the me that eats junk food in bed and never exercises won’t live past forty and every day of that life will be spent in unhappiness. so here’s to change. this blog is officially turning into my exercise and food diary and fingers crossed this time next year i’ll be a totally different person!!